This is not about a television series! This is about me — longing for something impossible …
Big note: I will not be talking about some
reality television series this time.
This may sound melancholic, but I just realized this past few days that I’ve been longing for a big brother, or maybe even a little one. Here’s my story:
Before evening last Tuesday, I became excited when my father told me my older cousin will be sleeping over our house for the night because his friend asked him to teach something. It didn’t actually take place, so we just hung around, watched a movie, and talked about stuff. I was happy. But, it was actually my mother who made me realize that I long for a kuya (“big brother” in English). Yes, I have an older sister whom I really am close with, but I can neither play games nor watch action movies with her.
A big brother is plainly impossible that’s why I guess even a little brother would suffice. Though my mother said it is still possible for her to bear a child, it will be very difficult and dangerous for she’s already in her forties, and she have had operations somewhere in her reproductive system. 🙁
BTW, I have had my hair cut yesterday â€” shaved sides ang back. I don’t actually miss the long-back style I’ve had for years now, it’s so damn hot these days that I became comfortable with this new haircut almost immediately. I just don’t know how I can handle my classmates’ and friends’ teasing of
gagong gupit or such when I go to school this Monday or Tuesday. Now, I really look like some fat kid who’s missing a big brother. I just hope other people won’t see it as such. 😆
The feeling of being left behind lingers inside my head … What happens next? What awaits me by tomorrow?
Time goes by so fast and I really feel very left behind. So many things cram up my schedule; I don’t know what to think anymore. Valentine’s day was simple â€” so many restrictions made it somehow that way. With all those planning that fell apart, I just want to tell my baby I’m so sorry. Engineering Week kept me busy with projects. And â€” my most hated part â€” minor subjects kept making me feel they’re so important.
Here’s almost everything:
- I have to finish an acceptance speech for Eng 107A for tomorrow â€” memorized and complementary to one of my classmate’s presentation speech that have arrived in my inbox just about now.
- I have to research and draft a concept paper about Mga Epekto ng mga Pelikulang Sci-Fi sa mga Hinaharap na Pagbabago sa Intelektwal na Aspeto ng mga Manonood for Fil 2 for Saturday.
- I have to pass my Masterpiece for Phl 5 for Tuesday.
- I have to pass two Final Laboratory Reports for Phys 205L for Wednesday; and
- I have to wake up so early on Sunday to run and “donate” money for CWTS‘s Run for Humanity.
Yes, that’s too many. Err … At least for me.
Ok, I actually had in mind a lot of things to talk about. But, I’m afraid my mind is jumbled up again right now. I think I have to start on that speech already. Until the next update. Wish me luck on everything, thanks! 🙂
BTW, I have made my JoHari Window just for fun. Anyone of you who’s got nothing to do unlike me: Please, fill it out. Thank you!
Sweetness, thoughtfulness and creativity … Please … Come to me now. 😀
I should have started thinking of something to do for the 14th weeks ago, but there has been so much work in school that each day went by without something planned. I really do not know if what I have already thought of just now is executable, but I think I should give it a try. Just wait, guys, I won’t be revealing anything just yet â€” my girlfriend may be reading this. I just hope my plan (or anything else I could do if it fails) will work. Cheer me up please. Oh crap, maybe I should be doing it myself, quoting someone from a Korean television series:
Aja! (Go fight!)
Btw, maybe you guys could suggest something I could do. Or better, what you’d like someone to do for you? I know it would really help. 🙂
Now, here’s something I think I did for the sake of Valentine’s day. I just had an appointment this afternoon with my dentist. I came home smiling to my family wearing red elastics. Nothing really. You could laugh now. 😆
I remember earlier this day, I came home from school via a different route. My ride usually travels through Roxas Boulevard but the 3rd annual Lovapalooza was being set up there. I think couples are starting to crowd there now. Oh, how I wish we could come. 🙁
Ehehe … Never mind that. I’m happy still, after all, it is just a kiss. 😛